The most abstract post ever

This morning came way too fast for me. It is actually a good thing that outside it is cloudy, as i am moving in slow motion and i keep asking myself questions like " What day is it today?" and "Why don't i have any food in the fridge?". Sunday, and respectively, because.
I woke up as i half asleep- half awake admitted to myself that no, i will never do what i am tempted to do coz i have too much good sense for it.... And i am also inclined to avoid any aiding factors that cloud judgment because next time i will not resist and i will do something that would probably feel good in the short run, but smth i will not be too proud of later.
On the other hand... Giuseppe's status says " He who risks, may lose... But he who does not risk, has already lost". Which is correct, so never regret anything in your life, because all we do is out of yearn for happiness. Some things may prove to have positive consequences, some may not, but in the end, all of them go into the little box of memories that makes ones life fall further up the axis that goes from " pathetic", to " worth writing a blog each day" and gets to "so wonderfully exciting that i wish i would live it over and over again and never get bored". That is why after a night when i let go of myself and almost drowned in my own misery i am torn between yes and no questions, between faces and memories of the past and between wishes, dreams and ambitions of tomorrow.
Today is yesterday's tomorrow, and i am happy to be lucid. I am glad i have moved on and i am slowly sinking in the fact that no, it was never real and yes, i am better now.