Out of the woods

He who does not risk does not win. If you want to win the lottery, the first thing you have to do is play. If you play, you may lose. But at least you now know for sure.
Is it better knowing? Or is ignorance a bliss?
I usually never risk. Coz i do not like to be the one asking. Is it pride? Is it fear? Is it stupidity or self preservation?
Of course, asking a question usually entails receiving an answer. Even if it is not the one you want to hear, at least it is a piece of information. And as these days information is power, i guess it is a good thing to ask.
If it were that easy.
I am a person who has an adversity towards rejection. Towards the word "No". And i try to avoid saying it and having it said to me. So i am gutless. And I appreciate it when people are diplomatic, and when the refusal is very well hid. If only i were to learn from such happenings. But no, it looks like i have some kind of an masochistic instinct and i am attracted to all the wrong people. But in the end, it is better this way. Knowing. And i have to move on. Knowing is better. I will keep telling myself that. And i will try to ask more questions. Other questions. Till i finally get the answer i want.